Since September, I’ve been searching for a full-time job. I have a part-time job that is phone-based and I love calling people up to make bookings to pick up their donations. I don’t chat with them every time, but sometimes the conversations are magical.
I've just been offered a position as a customer care specialist in a contact centre for the aviation industry. I used to think this kind of work would be soul-destroying, but the values of this company are close to mine. I see how well this kind of work fits in with who I am. Plus, it’s shift work, so I have some flexibility.
I don’t do well with sameness. I need variety and human contact… and I need to be of service in the work I do.
And yet… there is this wondering inside of me that makes me question if I’m meant for a J-O-B. I adore being self-employed. I just don’t adore not making enough money to make ends meet and have some left over. A full-time job, doing something that feels good to my soul, sits fine with me. And the amazing travel benefits that come with it, in a time when traveling is calling to my soul… well, that just makes my heart flutter with joy. AND, I get to do this job from home!
But, a job is not the source of my fire
In my mastermind group, my coach, Celeste, offers help in a multitude of ways that are just what my tender heart needs at this time. Her support and her encouragement to trust myself and root into my power have been phenomenal since I started with the mastermind in May.
The fire in my belly — or perhaps in my sacral chakra, that wakes me up at night — is more than peri-menopausal hot flashes, it’s a power surge. I wrote a few weeks ago about the call to create, create, create. There has been such a shift in me that I am ready to go for it. So when Celeste asked what we needed help with and I asked for a Spirit Message around my job and my passion for working with women, I received this message and it made me wonder again...
“Sending you oh so much love. When I tune in for a message there is nothing that comes through about the job however what I see is a woman standing on a hill teaching and leading a group of women. The message is around a new part of your power (well actually it's ancient, but it's newly re-integrated) that you are rooted into now. The pathway forward may have shifted because of this, it's quite significant. Now is the time to be bold with your dreams and ask Spirit for your deepest desires, they are all available to you. What I see is that your vibration has raised and levelled up and a whole new array of possibilities are accessible now.“
And my reply:
“Yes, something did happen to me at the retreat. I became this confident person who can allow the time and the space for the person I am with to work through her sorrow. Yes, a levelling up. That's just how I would describe it. I will sit with my deepest desires through the night (perhaps a dream) and see how I feel in the morning. Thank you for this message, Celeste. I have been feeling this shift since I got back, it's marvelous, but still unclear as yet.”
My deepest desire
So, I sat with my deepest desires and I knew immediately that what I want is to work with women (and eventually men who someone reminded me, need help too, recently) to heal the inner child. I’ve come to understand that although we are all Wild Women, we cannot fully immerse ourselves in our divine feminine and be the walking embodiment of whom are meant to be if we don’t first heal our Wounded Wild Child.
The Wounded Wild Child is in all of us. No parent, relative, or caretaker could ever give us everything we need and so we become wounded and traumatized and we feel unworthy. Each time something happens that hurts us, it creates another hidden layer of debris. Our job, as adults, is to nurture our own Wounded Wild Child within us — essentially to re-mother or re-parent ourselves — as we gently peel back the layers, one at a time.
Nurturing the Wounded Wild Child is not about parent bashing, but we do need to believe our little girl is hurting by acknowledging that her pain is real. We had enough of being told to "toughen up" or "if you don't stop crying I'll give you something to cry about" as children. It's time to believe hold our Little with love and acceptance just as she is. When we acknowledge the hurt and the wrongs, then we can also begin the work forgiving and letting go while continually nurturing and protecting our Wild Child’s tender heart.
Essentially, we must give voice to this darling girl inside of us.
The Nurturing the Wounded Wild Child Experiment
If the Wounded Wild Child resounds with you in your heart, if your Little is roiling your guts and begging you to listen, if this scares but intrigues you — I invite you to join me in the co-creation of my next course.
The Nurturing the Wounded Wild Child Experiment, as I call it, is not a course as yet, but something we build and create together.
In the Experiment, we will devote all of our time nurturing that wounded Wild Child we each have within us. I want to make sure we also have lots of opportunity for healing and fun. We’ll do everything from journaling and sharing (as much as you are comfortable) to art journaling, and even an experiment in healing our family constellations. We'll learn how to honour our Wild Child's hurts and how to speak with her through journaling. Plus there will be fun assignments like making sacred playdates for our Wild Child that could include anything from singing to the sea or making snow angels, to stomping in mud puddles or taking a bubble bath!
I have lots of ideas and inspirations, and we can try them all. Some of my ideas and commitments for Nurturing the Wounded Wild Child include:
- At least 8 sessions of live gatherings in my online cocoon of love for conversation, laughter, tears and growth
- Journaling prompts to carry you through until we next meet
- Assignments for making sacred play time and having fun with your Wild Child
- We'll learn about how we wish love had been expressed to us and how we as adults express love
- An art journaling session
- A live family constellation session to help heal past generations and into the future
- A private facebook group so you can be sure that only those who enroll in this experiment can see your posts
- Replays of each live class, so you won't miss anything if you can't attend
- Each person who enrolls will also receive a copy of the book, Circle of Stones. I've had this book since 1994 and every time I read it, it touches the most tender part of me. We'll refer to it throughout the course. I'll have it shipped to you via Amazon.
- Beyond that, this experiment is up to the needs and the wants of the group and I'd like your input. It’s all about you and your Little!
- You’ll also get a bonus one-to-one session with me to work on whatever you like. At the very least we can have lovely, deep conversation and get to know each other face-to-face
- Do you have a healing gift to share with the group that would fit with Nurturing the Wounded Wild Child? Let's talk. I truly want this to be an amazing journey!
I am gauging interest, so please let me know if this experiment makes your little girl excited to be nurtured. You can find out more by following the link below.I need at least 8 people willing to commit to the work and the healing in this experiment before we can begin. Follow the link for more information and pricing.
I think I've got it now. While working full-time and working in my business is going to be new for me, there is so much good in both, I will make it work. I will be gentle with myself and kind and nurturing to my Little, kacky. Together we've got this.
This is what I am made for.
kathy mercure is a storyhealer, storylistener, and storyteller. Her life’s work is to gently draw stories from her students to help them find their voice and nurture their Wounded Wild Child through journaling. Her passion is to support women in realizing their true identity as Wild Women, claiming their passions, and speaking their truths as they become their most authentic selves. (Photo by EagleSpirit Soul Shots)