Happy New Year's Day everyone, and a Happy New YOU too!
For a writer, being at loss for words is like an opera diva with laryngitis.
Something has happened to me over this week that I will do my best to explain. I'm free-writing this directly into this blog, something i NEVER do, but I want it to come out the way a Writing From the Heart journal practice comes out (well, I will do some polishing, but again, this is why handwriting is best as I find myself editing as I write...) Oh, crappity crap, now I HAVE to do it in in my journal, don't I?
Okay, I'll be back soon-ish.
Here goes... directly from my journal
[FYI, this stuff in square brackets is me, the Editor...]
I don't exactly know what has happened within me, but I feel... well, new. I've broken through something for sure. It started Friday, when I finally sat down and committed to writing my information pages for Bust Out of Your Fear Box! At first it was my usual, "I'm not sure," self, but then I felt that familiar FLOW happen — that thing that allows me to write nearly continuously. it happens too when I am writing professionally. It's as if a being enters me. Elizabeth Gilbert speaks to it so well in BIG MAGIC.
It is inspiration and Spirit. It comes and I can write for hours. This is what I call Writing From the Heart because I am simply a tool to receive and record what I hear. It is big magic indeed.
The same thing happens in my journal writing. I want to get back on topic here, but I know [trust] if I follow this freight train of words I will find answers. They are leading me to it.
Sometimes, I admit, I don't always practice what I preach. Some days when Fear has control of the driving wheel, I get lost and the words don't flow, or I get lost in the busyness of trying to get it together to create a new course, plus do all the things that an online business solopreneur has to do to get noticed.
But on Friday, something happened and another piece of resistance broke away and fell from me. I felt like I was writing from my heart again — but in a different way — I was writing with the conviction and voice of someone who knows what she's talking about. It's like the two parts of me that were separated by fear, finally melted the frozenness and I could access something different from a different perspective.
I write a lot about stepping into my power — maybe not so much in my blogs, but in this journal. I know I am a powerful, powerful Alchemist, but at that moment and now again, I feel it, I am connected to it [her, the Alchemist]. It is the core of who I am in this life. I am a changemaker.
And I want to help you to change if that is what you want to do.
If you are into numerology, you probably know that 2-16 was a "9" year. A year of endings, because numerology works in circles of nine. I'm no expert, but my friend, Vikki MacKinnon of Got Your Number, is, and she's the real deal.
So, if 2016 was a "9" year, that meant endings, completion, (and not always endings of our choice) then when you add up [the numbers of] 2017, that means [today begins a new cycle and] a "1" year of new beginnings, creativity, and a force of creation that is very strong.
My mind took me back to a facebook post by a woman I consider a mentor — Elizabeth Gilbert — that was the first thing I saw when I opened up facebook this morning [it's absolutely worth a read]. This morning when I woke up feeling that sense of completion and looking ahead to the future.
I sure as hell don't know what 2017 brings, but I do know that 2016 wasn't a bad year for me. It was a challenge sometimes [like all years are], but also a lot of good happened too. Every year is like that. And what we choose to focus on — our intention — is where our attention follows.
[Shameless plug here... today is the first day of A Word-A-Day 2017 journal prompts and the today's prompt is resolution. If I were ever to do resolutions, these would be them]
In 2017, I choose, once again, to focus on the positive, to allow the light into my life, to greet uncertainly not with fear, but with the perception of possibility.
Do you remember the movie Pollyanna? Those of you who are my age may might remember [Hayley Mills as] the Disney character who always chose to see the positive in every situation and to learn the lessons from the not so joyful situations. Except once, but then she did again. [Apparently this is also a 1913 book by Eleanor H. Porter. Ha! there's even a Pollyanna Principle... who knew?!]
And that's what a Pollyanna is. Someone who chooses to see the good or the lesson in every situation she experiences.
As we head into another year of uncertainty, twists and turns, and the threat of the world taking a turn for the worse in 2017, don't you think the world needs more Pollyanna and less Eeyore?
Proof is in the puddin' here...
kathy mercure is a storyhealer, storylistener, and storyteller. Her life’s work is to gently draw stories from her students and help them unblock their writing, find their voice, and heal their lives. Her passion is to support women and men in realizing their true identity as a valued human being, claiming their passions, and speaking their truth as they become their most authentic selves. (Photo by EagleSpirit Soul Shots)