If anyone would have told me three years ago that I would ever be anything but a writer for hire, I wouldn’t have believed them. It was too scary to contemplate doing something other than what I was good at. And yet, here I am July 2016 and I’ve just written and built a completely new website that mentions my promotional writing only in passing.
Since I first discovered I could help people to listen to their hearts and write down what it has to say, I knew this was meant to be my life’s work. It’s not just writing — it’s so much more. To play a small role in helping you to listen, journal, and discover your truest selves is the best gift I can offer to the world. My connections with all of you help me to continue my healing journey as well.
I spent so much of my life with a J-O-B, not a career with direction. Even though I liked advertising, I couldn’t see myself ever being an advertising copywriter. I mostly left advertising because my mother had died and I didn’t want to end up with a life I didn’t want. Even back then advertising didn’t sit right with my values (though I didn’t know what my values were 20 some years ago in the way I do now). Making people want to buy Toilet Paper A because it’s better than Toilet Paper B, when in fact, toilet paper is toilet paper is not something I wanted to build a career on (pardon me for being indelicate, in advertising bathroom tissue is the proper euphemism for bum wipe as dear ol’ Dad used to call it).
When I left Vancouver to follow my dreams of the desert, my long journey to my authentic life began. I didn’t know who I would end up being, I just knew I needed to write for people and businesses that made me passionate to promote them. And all these 22 years later, I still do.
I’m a firm believer (and I manage to be a practitioner most times too) of Mike Dooley’s writings. Dooley is the creator of Notes From the Universe, and writer of really great books on the Law of Attraction. He says, “Thoughts Become Things”. In order for those thoughts to turn into things, you have to use all your senses to make the vision so real, the Universe conspires to make it happen. I did an exercise in envisioning my life 2 years and 5 years from this past spring, and helping people to listen, write, and heal is where my heart leads me. I can taste it, feel it, see it, smell it, hear it, and sense it. I’m using all 6 senses!
The second thing Dooley says we must do to help is to take tiny steps towards your vision. When you move in the direction you want to head, signs appear all over to help guide you, and perhaps tempt you.
AM I BEING TESTED?
(Oh! I thought of another test before I tell you the one I’m experiencing now. Several years ago now a big agency in town called me and asked me to cover for their head copywriter while he was on vacation. I got excited, met with the creative director and he offered me the chance to write about… you guessed it, toilet paper. I couldn’t sleep that night because the thought of it made me feel... well, poopy. So, I turned it down, and haven't worked for an agency since.)
So, back to the present test…
I’ve taken so many little steps since my first step towards teaching, I can’t possibly count them. But I’m curious to know if something like this has ever happened to you:
I’ve taken the decisive step of taking down my writer for hire shingle, and now I’ve built my new website that doesn't even mention it. And ever since I made this decision, I’ve been getting more and more calls from people I've never written for, who want to hire me to do freelance writing work.
Are you familiar with Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist? It’s based on the hero’s journey. I remember the part where the Shepherd meets Fatima and wants to stay with her in the Oasis. It’s a test to see if he is loyal to his quest.
That’s how I see this windfall of freelance work. I’ve been making great progress on my video course dream and I can feel it now, just out of reach.
The test isn’t whether I want to stay freelance writing. I don’t mind writing, but it doesn’t fill me up like helping people to heal does. I see the test as whether I’m willing to say “no” to the writing that does come so that my dream can come to fruition. Because the thing is, writing for others takes time away to write new courses and do the marketing that comes with it. I’ve been working 12-hour days on and off for the past month and I don’t want to do it anymore. That’s why I feel like I am being challenged. It’s scary to let go of what you know, as I’m sure you understand.
Has this ever happened to you?
What did you do?
I’d love to hear your stories.
I INVITE YOU TO EXPLORE MY NEW WEBSITE
I’m extraordinarily proud of it. It makes me feel like I’m on par with others that help people to find their destiny, and that I’m ready to bust out. Please visit my site and tell me what you think.
kathy mercure is a writer and storytelling workshop teacher. She is also known as a storylistener and a storyhealer whose life’s work is to gently draw stories from her students and help them unblock their writing, find their voice, and heal their lives. Her passion is to support women and men in realizing their true identity as a valued human being, claiming their passions, and speaking their truth as they become their most authentic selves.