Hah! I still got it! I am still the Queen of Procrastination! Yay me...
It is 9:53 p.m., the night before I am scheduled to release another of my weekly blogs. And I am angry with myself for procrastinating — again. For my "punishment," me who is not really with it in the evening, gets to try to sound eloquent when I should be in front of the boob toob, as my dad used to call it.
I've been this way since I was young. I don't remember exactly what grade I was in, later elementary years I think, but I do remember getting up one very early morning to finish (or perhaps even start) my school project on Bolivia, that was suddenly due that day. I think I was even up earlier than my dad, and Dad was a baker who got up most days at 4:30 or so to be at work in time to mix, rise and bake bread by the time his store opened at 9:00. He was some surprised to see me up, I tell you.
In all my work years, I've only been caught late a few times, and that is a point of pride with me: when I say I will deliver, I deliver. But lately, I feel like I'm spinning my wheels even more and I realize that I've done such a blastedly good job on this website (I've told basically everyone I know, broadcast it on facebook, and used it as my Toastmaster introduction, that one of the top freelancer coaches, Ed Gandia, used my website as a teachable moment in his course on winning more proposals. It's kind of like receiving a nomination for an Academy Award®.) that I've been busy fielding calls, meeting new clients and not getting any work done. I know, it's an enviable position to be in, and I'm grateful, but like the grasshopper, I really just want to fiddle all summer. One of these days I will figure out why I fear success so much, but that's a whole other blog.
So, tomorrow, instead of tuning into facebook, checking through my emails and generally using up the whole morning, my best time for writing by the way, here will be my schedule:
7:00 Post this blog
7:35 Morning writing exercises
8:05 At my desk not looking at facebook or email, but turning on the Baroque music for extra concentration and WORK, WORK, WORK!
12:30Answer emails and catch up with the outside world
2:30 Walk with Lulu
3:30 Work, work, work
4:30 I'm done!
I want you to know I have every intention of sticking to this schedule, but even if I don't, from now on I plan to use the mornings for writing, and the afternoon for emails, appointments and dog walking.
...so much for my post about Dark Shadows, the über cool, very scary (and incredibly campy I know now) soap opera that aired from 1966 to 1971, and the time my little brother saved me from certain death in the jaws of werewolves that were chained under my bedroom window. I guess I'll have to save it for next time.